I sit in teachings seven times a week. I learn so much I am taught about how God loves me, about intercession, about meditation and the beatitudes. I sit in the prayer room for hours on hours seeking God's face, sitting at the feet of the creator of the universe and I feel now as though the only thing that I have learned is that I don't know God at all.
I never understood how the four living creatures could encircle the the throne for all of eternity and every time find a different facet of God. Every time see something new, mind blowing and breathtaking. I thought eventually they will run out of things to look at. Although I still do not fully understand I feel like I might be starting to.
I understand what he meant when Job said "Behold, God is great, and we know Him not!" The more that I get to know God the more I realize that I don't know Him at all! He is so good, he is majestic, and sovereign; but I still don't KNOW His greatness and majesty.
If only I could know Him I would be satisfied. If I could be like Him!
I just want to know God. I do so long to know His glory, to know the sweet embrace of the Father. To stand before the throne and know the King into whose eyes I dare gaze. If only I knew Him! I do understand, however; that if I do SO long to know this man that I must first rend my heart. A slow and painful process but mandatory. I have to be willing to give up my ideas about who God is and allow Him to reveal himself to me. The truth about who He is and not the man that I have grown up to believe that He is.
I think that I have said enough for now though.
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